another dip

I had another dip into depression again.


my parents are away, tequila town I believe.  (its a Mexican restaurant. I was invited along, but the thought of eating at this moment kinda sickens me.)


I just sat here, and started crying.


My friends aren't answering, im alone, and im just crying.


I looked up and sobbed for a while.


I was legitimately worried that I might cut again, after being clean for 3 months.


So of course, I started watching Supernatural.
I do feel better at least.


I did tell my dad about my suspicions od depression, and he said 'Maybe.'


at least its not a 'no that's ridiculous.'


he said  we  might talk about it.


well ok then.


im just kinda having a hard time I suppose.


thanks.