Well with Wilbutrin

I have been numb.
100%.

Its odds, no emotions at all. I don't care about anything. I don't care that I don't care. Which means that I don't care whether or not I study, which means that my grades are slipping.

I've had these  numb periods before, but this one has gone on for nearly two months.

Its like... not quite a fog really, but like my conscienceless is just in the back. Everything is on autopilot. I started slipping into these fogs willingly in about seventh grade. When everything was blurry, I didn't have to feel anything.
But then I started to not be able to get out, to wake up.

They would come at random times, for random lengths of time.

I'm trapped in my own mind.

I cant describe it - its just completely flat. Nothing there.

I hate it. If I could feel hate right now.

recently I was started on Wilburton (I think that's how you spell it), and am getting weaned off the celexa.

I only hope this will work, because the frustration is killing me.

I get up in the mornings, literally wanting to die, and I still have to go to school and out on a happy face and do work.

I cant.

I just cant.