And I'm sorry.
We both assumed that the other was moving on, moving away. We each spoke less and less, until we just... stopped. It hurt, because it felt like they didn't want to see me, even though we live in the same town. Apparently they assumed the same thing about me.
It was a mistake.
And waited.
And held our breath.
And we spoke, finally, and I cried.
A lot.
I think we've reconciled as well as we can without seeing each other in person.
Because my parents are pissed.
They think Alex encouraged me to be promiscuous, that they're a bad friend, even though that's not true. They won't get it through their heads that Alex is one of the most important people in my life!
They refuse to even let Alex in the house unless they have a "face to face meeting" with them first. Like what?
Bambi is being great, she's gonna help me sneak out to see Alex. Because we need to see each other.
~
Apart from that, I got to see Kendall again!
God, just to be able to hold him, to touch him, to kiss him, and just be there, together, it's amazing. It's surreal.
It's wonderful.
I think that's what I miss most of all, just being able to lay there together and close our eyes and just be there.
There's something fantastic there.
~
Then, Bambi and I threw a Halloween party.
Two people came,
It was interesting, but kinda sad.
And now we have way too much food.
Oh well.
