Yes, tears were shed

So, Hae-Jin came over to spend the night. We ate pizza and watched anime and talked until pretty late.

When we dropped her off in the morning, we hugged for like a solid thirty seconds while my parents sat by getting irritated with us.
Yes, tears were shed. Lots of tears. Soon she's off to the wild land of Texas.

Right after that we were off to therapy, which was fine until i realized that my dad was with us for some reason. Then my mother revealed that she wanted a family therapy session again. I did not want this for many reasons.

So after we get there we talk for a bit, then the main issue came up. Which was that my mum wanted to visit me at camp. I really, REALLY didnt want that to happen. Camp i like my home away from home, it's where  i feel safe and comfortable. If she showed up, i would be worrying about it for days and it would ruin the happy energy there.

Home and camp are two separate things in my life, and i want to keep it that way.

Murder, She Wrote

Wow. Okay, I'll start from the beginning.

First of all, my friend Bambi had an 'End of school pool party/movie marathon/gathering of nerds. We all got a bit sunburned, gorged ourselves on food, watched corny horror movies and then (at my insistence), The Artistocats. Best movie ever. Then, after most people had left, we just hung out. By 'we,' i mean Bambi, the girl i have a huge crush on, and i. Funnnnn.

We ended up having to share an air mattress. Jesus fucking christ, i was not prepared for this. But it was nice, in a way. Easier than i thought it'd be.

But it almost murdered me.

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Something else is that one of my best friends, the first person i met when i moved here nine years ago, is moving.
It's really sad - she knows me better than almost anyone. We've helped each other through some of the worst periods of our life.
And tbh, I'm worried about her. She's one of the strongest people i know, but somehow i cant imagine life without her.

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On a bit of a happier note, my meds have been more effective lately. Not 'healed', but there's less bad days.
Normally, life is either bad or neutral. Now i have actual happy moments.
Granted, the shock of feeling happy usually overpowers the happiness pretty fast, but it's still nice.

I've been sleeping about 16 hours a day, which my doctor calls 'unhealthy.' Since i sleep about 12 hours each night, then usually take a nap for 2 - 4 hours each day, i dont have a lot of time that I'm actually conscious.
They dont know if it's the depression, a thyroid problem, vitamin deficiency, etc...
Actually, it might be the vitamins, since my meds make me not feel hungry and my parents at work all day, i regularly forget to eat breakfast. And lunch.

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And since I'm dropping spanish, it's leaving more time to focus on Swedish.
We got our schedules for next year - i have FOUR art classes, pottery, sculpture, AP:3D, and comp III. I dont know how that happened.
I'm also taking AP literature next year, which I'm actually pretty excited about. But it means i have a lot of work to do over the summer.

Kill me.

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Finally, we're going on vacation in about a week, to the Bahamas. on a shady cruiseline to a shady town where we'll probably be sold to gypsies. So. Excited.
(help me)