well most happy easter and may all your wishes come true or something.
I canNOT express to you enough how much I love easter break.
I took up jogging, just so I can have a sport that I can point to and be like 'hey yeah I can do that' when someone asks because NO ONE in my gym class is shy about telling me how much I suck at every sport we've tried. (volleyball, tennis, badminton, soccer, football, basketball, handball, Frisbee, and basically anything else that requires hand-eye coordination.)
MY MOM MADE ME DRIVE TODAY.
I got my drivers manual for my permit and I guess she'd assumed that I'd read it (I have zero time) so she made me drive all the way out to Tybee (a close-ish beach to my house) on the highway and everything and my life flashed before my eyes so much today.
there was lots of honking.
uh my ex boyfriend declared his undying love for me.
AND FINALLY I talked to my arch nemesis from 5th grade today on facebook.
so yeah fun wheee I have an essay to write that's my final for a class and its 6 pages and HOLYSHITITSALMOSTMIGHTNIGHTWHATTHEFUCKHAPPENED okay bye then
Sunday, April 20, 2014
Thursday, April 17, 2014
Oops
so my parents took me in for a 'depression screening' yesterday, which consisted of 475 mind numbing questions, plus four more shorter personality quizzes. Maybe two minutes of contact with an actual human being.
wheee.
Then, on the drive home, my mum casually asked "so have you ever self harmed?" and at this point I was so tired and out of it that I just said 'yeah' and that was that.
Now she's acting weird, asking uncomfortable questions, and gonna tell my dad.
no thanks.
Then, today, I found out that she thinks im ADD.
AGAIN.
Why again?
Because she go me tested before, and they told her that she was nuts and I have excellent concentration.
That means that all of my teachers have to fill out a form, deciding whether or not im crazy.
They will all think differently of me, and theres nothing I can do to stop that.
So, I stormed out, went on a really long bike ride, climbed a tree, cried really hard, biked back, acted normal for my parents, went upstairs, cried some more, and kinda flopped around pathetically.
I wish I had never told her.
Why in hell did I?
can I have one of those remotes that can rewind time please?
and now im failing too classes, and everything is piling up, and I have too much homework,
and my parents are on my back constantly, and I have too much to do, but all I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry.
God dammit.
Happy Fuckin Easter.
wheee.
Then, on the drive home, my mum casually asked "so have you ever self harmed?" and at this point I was so tired and out of it that I just said 'yeah' and that was that.
Now she's acting weird, asking uncomfortable questions, and gonna tell my dad.
no thanks.
Then, today, I found out that she thinks im ADD.
AGAIN.
Why again?
Because she go me tested before, and they told her that she was nuts and I have excellent concentration.
That means that all of my teachers have to fill out a form, deciding whether or not im crazy.
They will all think differently of me, and theres nothing I can do to stop that.
So, I stormed out, went on a really long bike ride, climbed a tree, cried really hard, biked back, acted normal for my parents, went upstairs, cried some more, and kinda flopped around pathetically.
I wish I had never told her.
Why in hell did I?
can I have one of those remotes that can rewind time please?
and now im failing too classes, and everything is piling up, and I have too much homework,
and my parents are on my back constantly, and I have too much to do, but all I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry.
God dammit.
Happy Fuckin Easter.
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